a complete listing of all events at the Itinerary
July 2002 email Newsletter
Facing Fear - Reclaiming your Healing Power
(responses follow)
Prelude: I firmly
believe that what one of us learns is offered out
for all of us to embrace into our experience. And
so the letters which follow are put forth as
touchstones for events or moments that you too may
recognize from your own life path.
As you may have noticed, I
tend to send out this monthly email when I feel
that I have something to share, rather than
according to the calendar. The topic I am drawn to at
this moment is fear. Fear brings into our awareness
a part of ourselves that we are ready to integrate.
That is my experience, and I feel it is the
experience of the world at this moment. When we
integrate rather than feed fear, we become more
powerful. Why would we not choose to integrate
fear? Because we are afraid of becoming more
powerful. Beliefs, often from society
or childhood, lie under our conscious awareness.
They tell us that having money is painful, or bad
for the planet, or leads to losing loved ones. All
and any of these beliefs can be bound into us in
non-verbal ways. The energy of the belief itself
can be hidden in muscles that we seldom use, and so
we do not encounter the belief 'lighting up'
clearly. Here the role of fear comes
into play. What we fear tells us what we are about
to integrate. Have you been fearing a lack of money
or a lack of love? You are standing upon the issues
that are keeping you in the state of fear around
these issues. Look at whatever is going on in your
life right now. What one inner knowing is coming to
you? Follow it, and reconnect with spirit. In the
reconnection you will find the fear, and the lack,
drop away. This came to me this week via
email &endash; "My husband is a Special
Forces instructor; therefore many of his colleagues
are working in Afghanistan. Scores of them have
come back from Afghanistan stating that the Air
Force is out of control there. They shoot first and
ask questions later. Many times they have killed
their own forces. "One of our oldest friends is
missing multiple limbs and an eye because the Air
Force missed their target and decided to discharge
the bombs anyway, raining them down on him and ten
others. Most of them are labeled as accidents but
they are NOT accidents. The pilot is overwhelmed by
fear and makes a poor choice and that's all there
is to it. "There is no malicious intent
but it results in Karma nonetheless. Not every Air
Force pilot is like that and not every situation is
the result of fear but I am convinced that
everything tied to this situation is just one big
empty justification." Something struck me about how
we as a nation are also working on this same fear
energy, albeit in other manners. Over the past month I've
noticed elements of fear in my life emerging more
strongly. I have been less grounded, which for me
shows up as over-eating, being 'jumpy', and feeling
queasy around mice and birds that my cats leave as
gifts. It has occurred to me that I
am processing out a bit of the fear that we in the
USA are accepting as inevitable. I do not believe
that this same type of fear exists when the
connection with Spirit is complete. I do believe
that we each experience a sense of wariness in
situations of actual danger. Spirit is telling us
we have boundaries of safety that are healthy to
maintain while in physical form. The type of fear I am
noticing is a result of separation from our Higher
Self or Spirit. Giving more and more attention to
our fear feeds the space of that separation.
Without even noticing it, we accept the fear as a
part of everyday life. But it is not comfortable,
because it is a disconnection of the spiritual
support for our bodies, minds and emotions.
As I notice my fear, I have a
choice to change how I respond to it. In
meditations &endash; both silent sitting and moving
Yoga, I find over and over again a theme running
through my mind. I recall Marianne Williamson
saying that the greatest fear we have is of our own
power. It is dawning on me that all of my fears are
actually ways that I disconnect from stepping into
myself. When I experience fear, I am experiencing a
call to connect more deeply with my own power. It
is always my choice whether to connect into spirit,
or deny my own tools to do so. In a news report it was
stated that 30% of Israeli children and 70% of
Palestinian children suffer from post-traumatic
stress syndrome. It is widely assumed that this is
bad. What might also be seen is that these children
are experiencing the result of disconnection from
spirit in a manner that may lead them more strongly
to seek that connection later in life. The soul
urges itself to return home more and more strongly
when it notices that it is straying. Physical,
mental and emotional issues are the signs that we
experience when we are ready to reconnect with
spirit more completely. A bit more from the same
email - "I do feel that many civilian
communities, especially the communities that are
more spiritually enlightened, do not comprehend (or
forget) about the humanistic quality of the
military…and fear is a big part of that human
quality. Many people who flock to the
military are the people that look to the military
to lessen their fear through the immense quantity
and specificity of rules. To a younger soul, rules
decrease fear and increase safety. The problem
starts after these people are advised of the rules
and released into sticky situations (like the Air
Force Pilots in Afghanistan). They panic many times
because they realize that the rules are just a
band-aid for their fear and that their fear has
followed them." I believe that the fear
gripping our military is the same fear I have been
experiencing. It is a call to connect more deeply
with the inner world, and to act from the wisdom
and power of Spirit. Fear is simply our physical
way of perceiving a connection with spirit that we
are ready to make. When we 'plug in' that new
connection, we are choosing to take advantage of
our own learning process. If we perpetuate the fear
and act to keep it, we merely continue to build the
chasm between who we are now, and who our soul is
calling us to become. As we each 'plug in' anew to
spirit, our interconnectedness serves to support
others in their own process of joining with their
spirit. Meditating and praying for our own healing
process echoes out to others along the shared grid
of consciousness. So as we find the courage to
embrace our own new areas of power, those in the
midst of battle, whether overseas or in the arena
of the profane world, hear a call to remember their
own spiritual power. My love and blessings to all
who read this..
"First, just
finished the newsletter and that was exactly what I
needed to remember. That reminder to walk through
fear by moving into the silence is very important
to me right now. That fear is a big block that I
use as an excuse to stay stuck. Maybe the silence
will help me move through it. The next challenge is
quieting the mind chatter." "Hi Norma,
Thank you for your newsletter and the focus on
fear. In recovery circles, we often talk about FEAR
as False Evidence Appearing Real. The disconnection
is generated and perpetuated by the 'false
evidence'. Another way it is manifested is F___
Everything And Run, whereas the solution lies in
Face Everything And Recover! Reality can
be very painful at times and difficult to face when
things are happening that are not within one's own
domain of 'control'. It is my impression that
America is suffering from a deep-seated Post
Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), which is
perpetuating the fear and subsequent acting out
that is violent towards 'others' (who are really
reflections of oneself or ONE SELF!) PTSD does not
get better easily until one is able to face all the
feelings associated with the trauma and accept it
as the past not the present. Problems continue to
arise when the feelings from the past intrude on
the present. Acceptance is also a challenge as
people struggle between 'forgiveness' and seeking
restitution..." Best wishes,
Raju., Dear
Norma, Just writing
to say hello, thank you and to share some
experiences with you. First of all,
I would like to say thank you for having me on your
mailing list and sending your monthly updates.
Since I saw you last, my life has been going
through major upheaval, transition and growth. I
would say I am living the tarot card of the Tower
and it is still crumbling. What is most interesting
is that each time I get one of your newsletters I
find the content so amazingly relevant to what I am
going through/learning at the time. This month's
newsletter about fear also struck home. I would like
to share with you what has been happening in my
life around fear, singing and music since last
November. I know this is a little lengthy, but it
is, believe it or not, the short
version! I was having
a conversation within the last week with my cousin
during a mini emotional breakdown I was having. I
felt I was losing my faith and I was questioning my
life in the last few months and why I couldn't seem
to move forward to where I wanted to be. Her guided
response (we come from a long line of
"intuitives"), among other things, was that I had
to "let go of control and step out of my own
way". We had a
lengthy discussion of what that meant asI was
having trouble grasping that concept. She had said
that I had become disconnected from my higher self
and was living in fear. I couldn't understand that
at first because in my conscious mind I had no
fear. I was living my life honestly and with
courage, meeting the challenges life/the universe
set before and with a willingness to follow my
path. So I thought. We finally got to the root of
my fear and how it was affecting my life choices
and drawing to me exactly what I was
fearing. Now knowing
what that fear is, I can choose to let go and step
aside so that my higher self and guidance can help
me to move forward. That is the easy part...the
rationalization.I also have a birthday this month,
on the 17th I turn 40. Intuitively I know my life
is at a major turning point and it is the beginning
of a life so completely different from what I have
known. Hence the transitions. There is some fear in
that as well. I am currently working with learning
to step aside and release all the fears.
:-) I have come
to the realization that my life falling apart does,
indeed, have to do with moving forward, even though
I never saw it that way. Out with the old and in
with the new. I just wish that we could get to the
end of the old! :-) I have also come to realize
that when we are not listening to our guidance or
higher selves and not doing what we need to be
doing in order to move forward, the universe does
it for us and by then it seems much
harder. On the up
side, I have been singing since I last participated
in your concert. Your kindness in allowing me to be
a part of that choir even though I had not sang in
over 15 years was a starting point for me. It took
a couple more months, but I started to sing out
loud in front of other people with my friend's
band. Just at jam sessions and rehearsals, not on
stage (as I was not an official band member, just
the manager and the founder's best
friend). However,
there were times when I would get an incredible
hoarseness and irritation in my throat chakra, not
only when singing, but when talking, too. I had
come to realize that I had trouble finding my voice
with this friend and was not allowing my self to
say what needed to be said. We were once best
friends, but as the band formed and our circle of
friends grew, he changed toward me, and not for the
better. I realized that my not talking to him about
how he was treating me and standing up for myself
was affecting my voice. His other best friend (of
31 years) told me that even though I had not done
or said anything to cause the problems in our
relationship, it was old issues and triggers around
having a band again that was causing the problems
with him. I was just the one who ended up paying
for it. I finally had
a breakthrough. A few weeks
ago I was invited to go to a sweat lodge for a
Thunderbird sweat ceremony. This ceremony is for
healing on the mental, emotional, physical and
spiritual levels in order to help release what is
keeping us stuck. There were 4 parts to the sweat,
one each for the 4 directions and 4 aspects of the
person. When we were doing the sweats for the
directions for the emotional and spiritual levels I
had the most dramatic releases. The strongest was
the throat chakra. At that time the desire to sing
along with the drums and chanting was over
powering. I sang anyway and that hoarseness and
pain struck my throat and I literally could not
sing or make a sound no matter how hard I tried. As
well my solar plexus was in knots and I felt like
throwing up. I had the dry heaves and was coughing
and choking uncontrollably as what ever was lodged
in these 2 centres tried to release
themselves. At the end of
each bout of coughing, choking and heaving I would
try to sing again, and each time the bouts of
physical reaction would take over and so the cycle
went. It was like a battle of some kind with some
invisible force and I was not backing down. I don't
know why I kept on, or wouldn't give in, there was
just this incredible overwhelming desire and need
to do so and I couldn't stop if I wanted to. So, I
went with it and fought the fight. By the end I was
exhausted and drained. I felt like there was
nothing left. At the end of
the sweats I was removed from the lodge. For some
reason I don't understand, I would not let anyone
help me leave the lodge. I "had" to do it myself.
And I did. Crawling on all fours, barely able to
move. When I emerged, I was laid on the ground and
hands-on healing work was done on me. There was
more coughing and choking and heaves and finally it
stopped as suddenly as it had started during the
sweat ceremony. When it was over and I stood up, I
felt more grounded and energized than I had felt in
over a year. My depression had lifted and my
spirits soared even though minutes before I had not
an ounce of energy, mentally, emotionally,
physically, or spiritually. Despite the long and
arduous day I felt like I could party all night, I
had that much energy and good spirits. Thankfully
good sense prevailed and I went home and slept -
better than I had in months. :-) Shortly after
that I found the courage and talked to my friend,
who tried to convince me that the problems were all
in my head and continued to lie to me. Behind my
back he said different things. My friends know what
he is like and they know the truth and are
supportive of me. However, I made a decision to let
go of my friend and this particular circle of
friends. Interestingly
enough, since the sweat and letting go of the band,
my voice is clearer, stronger and more melodious
when I sing. Not a moment of hoarseness has crept
back and I have been practicing on my own at home
and when I am driving. I am amazed at the way I can
use my voice now. The improvement is immense. Of
course there is still work to do, but it is easier,
more joyful and, as a result, I am more encouraged
to continue. Not only am I
singing, but I started learning to play the cello
about 2 months ago. The one good thing that came of
my relationship with this man is that I got my
music back. It had been a part of my life
from the
age of 5 into my early 20's and I had missed it in
my life. Since the hearing loss in my left ear, I
had not played an instrument or sang. I am doing
both on a daily basis and I have learned my hearing
loss is not hindering my ability to do either one.
The joy I get from having music back in my life is
really helping me through the transitions and is
keeping me sane! :-) These days I
am feeling stronger and better than ever...look out
40 here I come! It's a new phase for me and I am
looking forward with joy, and back without regrets
:-) Namaste, -----S U M M E R I T I N E R
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